Yet another reason...

...that I am not ever going to have a baby. Ok, so since I have been around a lot more people that have had children recently, I hear horror stories of births, pain, large needles, "tearing", squishy post-baby insides, and much more. These stories do not help my desire to have children in the futre. Honestly, when I was on my mission, my bff Heather had her first baby, and she sent me a long letter about all the details of the birth and everything involved. I loved long detailed letters, but lets just say my companion thought I was reading a horror story by the reaction I was having. I guess I was more naive than I thought about the birth/labor process. THEN, I had an interesting experience while interpreting in a sex ed where they showed a birth, and just zoomed in on the "important" stuff (ah-hem) and we saw all the details. Including the "after-birth." (which she rewound while we watched everything go back in, and then come back out again.) The fact is, I'm getting a little freaked out, people. Your kids are cute (they really are), but I can enjoy them from a distance, right?


So here is the news story that inspired this oh-so-uplifting post. This is a baby that was recently born in Indonesia at 19.2 pounds. 19.2 lbs people! I am sure that it would be my luck to have a 19lb baby. ahhh! (the baby on the left is a "normal" baby to compare)



Here is another picture of a six month old Iranian baby. Ahhh again!


cute but a little bit scary!

(ok, before I get hate mail, these things are more of my musings, rather than me actually saying birth is nasty, and I refuse to have kids. Don't worry, I sincerely know there are great things attached to having kids, and am sure I will get over it.)

Higher Caliber

Introducing, the new addition to my little family of one....


Its my new(ish) car!!! Its a 2007 Dodge Caliber, and its wonderful. I have been researching theses puppies for a while and found a serious deal, and seized the moment.

Some things I love about it:

great gas mileage

great in snow in general (front wheel drive)

the look of the body looks like a mini SUV

its super duper roomy

has an aux power outlet so my IPOD can directly plug into the system rather than go though the radio which sounds crappy. (this may be my favorite feature, im not gonna lie.)

drink cooling feature w/slots in the huge glove compartment

also, the cup holders light up at night. seriously.



what a cute butt!

Things I Regret...

I am sure we all like to say "I live my life with no regrets," but honestly, I think everyone has regrets. Some are big, some are teensy weensy, but no matter what, they are there. I am not going to talk about all my big stuff, just my TOP 5 little ones, but they have stuck with my for some reason, and I thought it would be therapeutic to "let them go--send them to the universe."
(I know, right, I'm super deep)

REGRET #5 I should not have been afraid to be myself and laughed:

When I was 12 I had a crush on a guy named Shaw, who I rode the bus with. One day, he was being extra goofy with his friend, apparently trying to show off. It totally worked, because I thought he was ah-mazing. So, the whole bus ride home I totally ignored him because I didn't want him to think I liked him (makes total sense, right?). It was so hard for me not to laugh and swoon, but I did it and was pretty proud of myself. As we got to my stop, I started to get up to go, and he said to me "Hey! Don't you ever smile!?" Wahhhh! I was so crushed and my plan totally backfired (ok, maybe it wasn't a well thought out plan). I mumbled "ha, yeah." and got off the bus totally dejected. I steered clear of him for the rest of the school year.

REGRET #4 I should have stayed in Ballet and Tap.

I will just simply say to all you youngin's out there, (none of whom are actually reading this) when givin the option to be in fun, social dance classes, or quit so you don't miss The Mickey Mouse Club and Kids Inc., don't choose the latter. (thats why God invented DVR, right?...right?)

REGRET #3 I shouldn't have been afraid of dumb boys.

This very much relates to both of the previous ones. I LOVED soccer, and was in it for several years as a kid. One year we moved, and the soccer teams were co-ed, so I refused to join because I would have boys on my team! Boys!...oh the horror! (anyone still wondering why I'm not married?.... cricket.....cricket...stare...thats what I thought.)

REGRET #2 Joining Facebook

There goes my life.

REGRET #1 Not documenting more about my life

I really wish I would have written in my Journal more in my life. Especially in HS it would have been nice to be able to go back and see what I was like, what I thought about, etc. I have a few things I wrote (probably 10 journals with the first 2-3 pages written on) and its so interesting to see what I thought, and how I wrote because its amazing how much you forget in such a short time. Thats why I think this blog is better than nothing for me.